No, this post isn’t about the Celine Dion song. It’s about the day I said hello to this world. Yeah guys, I just got a year older today! Hooray for me!
I stopped celebrating my birthday a few years ago. For those of you who have been with me on this blog since the beginning know that I’ve went through some really shitty years. Years in which I made bad friends, trusted the wrong people, and let them take complete control over my life. Those are the people who made me hate my birthday. It was like the one day in the entire year when I could feel absolutely horrible about myself.
Once I got over that terrible period in my life I decided to no longer give a shit about this day. I started to hide my D.O.B from my new friends, hid it from all my online profiles, and strictly told my family to respect my wishes and never indulge in any celebration. All of their efforts to make me happy on this day were futile because I was too stuck up on the past.
But 2015 has been a life-changing year for me. It has been by far the happiest year of my life (the reasons of which are exclusive to me, myself and I). A few days ago my Mom came to me and said, “Stop being such a tight-ass. Let us celebrate this year. I don’t give a damn what other people say but you are special to us; this day is special to ALL OF US.” As usual, I protested at first, but I just couldn’t let her down (she was looking so excited), so I promised that I’ll be on my best – and happiest – behavior on the “big day”.
*Warning: This post might turn a little “Facebook-y”. I don’t mean to rub in my happiness in anyone’s face, I just want to save this feeling in writing so that when I look back I know how happy I was.*
My Future Husband (whoever he is) would be so ecstatic after hearing this that I’m not a big fan of spending money on myself. I only spend it on ice-cream. Who needs THINGS when you can have ice cream?? But five days back I thought that treating yourself once in a while is okay – especially on your birthday – so I went online and ordered a laptop skin which I’ve been wanting for a while. On Thursday I received the parcel and voilà, look at this beauty 😀 I think it looks pretty darn cool.
I got this idea while watching “Episodes“.
It’s the most perfect show and its review is coming soon. Stay tuned!
Now, last night, as the clock struck midnight, my Mom, Dad, and Bro all jumped on me (yeah, all at once and they’re all super heavy), picked me up and made me dance with them (without music – it was just us yelling)! The silliest most ridiculous kind of dance 😀 After that we ate a full bowl of Strawberry Custard my Mom made for me. And then came the gifts. Yay!!
My Pops got me just the kind of handbag I’ve always wanted. These kinds of branded bags are just too expensive; I never had that much money to spare and I felt bad for asking my parents to get me one. I don’t know how he knew my exact taste – I was pleasantly surprised by his choice – but darn, doesn’t it look FABULOUS? Check out this beauty. ❤
My Bro gifted me the one game I’ve been dying to play for MONTHS! Yesss, “Until Dawn“, the most super-fantabulous survival-horror game of this year!
I’ve been glued to the screen playing it since morning, and its like being a part of a gruesome teen slasher movie. Really gets the adrenaline pumping! 😀
My Mom gave me two gifts: one was a delicious dinner at the restaurant of my choice (sorry, no pictures of the food because I hate doing it.. It’s just too damn idiotic) and the second was the best gift I’ve ever received in my entire life! It was a $1 DVD.
Now you must be thinking “That’s the best gift you’ve ever gotten? Man, you’re cheap.” But in the contents of that DVD is a video which was made back in 1995; it’s the video of a birthday party I had when I was two years old 😀
Apparently my Mum found this video cassette in our old stash and had it converted to an everlasting DVD. You remember video cassettes? Damn, I loved those big old things.
Back then we used to have such grand birthday parties! We invited the entire family, the neighbors, my parents work buddies (practically EVERYONE we knew). Today I watched it with the family and… have you ever cried constantly for 50 minutes? I have.
Watching it was… like being attacked by a Nuclear-Nostalgia-Bomb. Seeing that child-like wonder in my eyes. That happiness. That excitement. My youthful parents. My relatives who no longer want a relationship with us. The grandparents who’ve left this world. I haven’t cried like this… in ages.
Just look at me :’D
Look at that little critter 😀 Those Bugs Bunny teeth! And I am seriously ROCKING that ‘do! 😛
And that’s me cutting my birthday cake alongside my Mum, Dad and Bro. The beautiful little family :’) Mashaa Allah!
I couldn’t help but wonder, how did I let this feeling die? When did I become such a cynic? Why didn’t I realize it earlier that I was always expecting the wrong things from the wrong people? My family was always there beside me. Waiting for me. They still love me exactly the way they used to love me then. Their love never changed. It might’ve even increased in fact. They’ve never left my side even when I acted like a complete a$$hole. I feel so foolish right now.
I’m sorry if this post has been a headache to read. I know I’m not the best of writers (not even a good one) but I just wanted to let it out on record so that the next time I decide to act like a bitch in front of my family, I should open this post and realize what a grave mistake I’m about to make.
Don’t do it Abeeha. Don’t take your family for-granted. Remember this feeling. Remember to cherish each and every moment with them. Be thankful. Be grateful for the life you have.