Oh what a month I’ve had. As a lot of you may know that we had Ramadan, the month where we fast from sunup till sundown. It’s a very important month for us and a lot of my WP Family members may know I had huge plans for it. But some things came in my way. It was probably the most toughest Ramadan I’ve ever had.
I’ve been gone from here for a long time now. Almost more than a month. It’s because a lot of things were happening simultaneously. First, of course my obligation of fasting. That was the FUN part! The not-so-fun part was the exams in the first 15 days of the month and the shitty part was that three days before the exams began I got Conjunctivitis. In layman terms it’s called Pink Eye.
Aww Pink Eye? That’s sounds cute. Do your eyes get all pink and glowy?
Actually, no. It’s not cute at all. Go Google Image that shit, and see for yourself. Why the hell did they give it such a adorable name? It comes in various forms, both mild and severe, and the virus I contracted was a real shitty one. The mornings were comparatively better, but as evening approached all hell broke loose.
As I have all my books and notes in my laptop so imagine studying for your final exams while both of your eyes are bloodshot, burning and itching continuously, eyelids have swollen up twice their size, they’re oozing weird green stuff and it feels like someone is blowing flaming hot ashes and dust into your eyes ALL THE FUDGING TIME!
Yes, cry for me Tom. CRY FOR ME!!
BUT THAT COULDN’T STOP ME!
You know, in Islam we’re advised if you can’t fulfill your religious obligations due to any problem you can postpone them to a later time when you’re feeling all perfect and healthy. I knew that, but I’m stubborn (super stubborn), and when I make up some plans I tend to fulfill them on the expense of my own well-being.
Therefore, I fasted. For all the days. With pink eye raping my eyes every second. I couldn’t see, I couldn’t read anything, I couldn’t sleep, but I didn’t stop. I’d made myself a promise and I keep my promises.
So studying for finals, with my eyes torturing me, and all the while I can’t eat or drink anything. All of this severely affected my health. I lost a lot of weight and I pretty much looked like a zombie. Those first 15-20 days were.. *sigh*.. so hard. I attempted the exams with 40% preparation.
But guess what? All that struggle paid off, because I got meself a 3.92 GPA. 3 straight A’s and 1 A-.
Why, thank you Shia. You told me to “JUST DO IT!!” and I DID IT!!
By the way, our universities use a 4 point scale for GPA.
Once the exams finished I visited some eye specialists. Three in fact. Because the first one gave me some really really strong medications which made me puke a lot. I visited another specialist who told me I actually don’t have pink eye, I have Blepharitis. That’s another horrible condition. So I took meds for that and they worked for a while, my eyes calmed down a little bit for two days and then it came back again. And then I visited another one, who finally diagnosed the condition correctly and gave me the right medication which suited me best. He told me it’s gonna take a month more for it to properly settle down.
As I couldn’t watch or read anything so I spent all my days on the praying mat. The mornings were a lot better but the burning, swelling and itching and that dusty-material-feeling came back at night. So I just kept my eyes closed, sat on the mat and talked to the Boss Up There. And oohh I talked to Him a lot. Those were the only times when I felt at peace. It felt like things between me and Him are good now. We’re back to being amigos. And it was the best frikkin’ feeling in the entire world.
Nowadays I’m feeling a lot better. My eyes look a lot normal now. I still can’t use the laptop or watch TV for a long time otherwise the burning comes back. Right now I’m writing with one eye closed because it’s beginning to itch. I’ve started to eat healthy. I’m taking an All Bran diet with whole grains and oatmeal etc. Getting lots of fibre and vitamins and whatnot into my body and… things are looking good. 🙂
I was expecting this month it’ll be smooth sailing for me, but it wasn’t. I was expecting to fail in my subjects, but I didn’t. I was expecting maybe my eyesight will be damaged, but it didn’t. So things don’t usually go as expected. It all turns out to be for the best. 🙂
And oh, as I couldn’t use my eyes that much so I skimmed through all the blogs of my dear WP Family to get up to speed on what’s been happening in all your lives. I’ve missed you all so much. Sorry I couldn’t comment on most posts because *pointing towards eyes* but once I get my eyesight back to a 100% I’ll be back in action.
One last thing. If anyone of you (God forbid) ever start to develop such symptoms then don’t take it lightly. Go visit your eye doctor immediately and don’t keep waiting like me because this condition can indeed cause loss of eyesight if left untreated.
Stay awesome everyone! ❤